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The World According to Laura
Aug. 29th, 2008 01:36 pmOkay so I get that she's projecting. The longer she stays here the more frazzled she gets, and the more she picks fights just because she's flipping insane. I want to kill her. But I refrain.... for now.
Beyond the usual array of stupidity that follows her line of thinking wherever she goes this morning she's been trying to convince my Mom that in order to "get the break" she so justly deserves she should have herself committed to the hospital for depression :| WTF. A) Mom's not suicidal, she's homicidal like the rest of us because she wants to kill Laura and yet still manages to put up with her in a fairly calm and rational voice which is more than I can do. B) Way to try to kill me and Patrick. We're already below the sinking point when it comes to getting help from her. I kept having stark nightmares (until I switched my pillow thank god) about begging her for help and her passing it off to everyone and anyone around her. Why? Because that's what she's been doing. Who cooks most of my meals? Not Mom but Brian. Meanwhile Mom's already in a tizzy about the idea of leaving for 4 days to go to Vermont because she thinks we can't handle that long which is fairly true so how in God's name are we supposed to go 2+ weeks that way?
And yes, I know... projecting. Laura is the one that (deep down?) feels like she might be responsible so she pushes those feelings to the nearest patsy. Which in this case is both me and Mom. Me that I'm pushing Mom over the edge, Mom that she needs to the hospital just for stress relaxation :|
Meh even Mom knows what she really needs: rest, sleep, her stuff finished (paperwork that is 2 months overdue *sigh*), and Laura to stop busting her chops.
Too bad the latter realistically only happens when Laura leaves.
And I really do think the only reason I've held on this week is 100% thanks to Kyle. A) because Laura tries harder to be nice and b) he's calm and rational in the sea of chaos that is my family/house.
Of course I'm mad because I'm scared because hello.... Laura has convinced a lot of people of complete and total LIES and pure insanity in the past so it's not out there to consider that she still might convince Mom of another one and in this case if that happens VERY bad things happen. As it is, I just calmed Mom down last night after a relatively big meltdown. And no, it's not just Laura's fault because Mom really does over-react around Laura but the minute Laura took off with the car I was able to talk Mom down into reality.
If only for the short time being.
Beyond the usual array of stupidity that follows her line of thinking wherever she goes this morning she's been trying to convince my Mom that in order to "get the break" she so justly deserves she should have herself committed to the hospital for depression :| WTF. A) Mom's not suicidal, she's homicidal like the rest of us because she wants to kill Laura and yet still manages to put up with her in a fairly calm and rational voice which is more than I can do. B) Way to try to kill me and Patrick. We're already below the sinking point when it comes to getting help from her. I kept having stark nightmares (until I switched my pillow thank god) about begging her for help and her passing it off to everyone and anyone around her. Why? Because that's what she's been doing. Who cooks most of my meals? Not Mom but Brian. Meanwhile Mom's already in a tizzy about the idea of leaving for 4 days to go to Vermont because she thinks we can't handle that long which is fairly true so how in God's name are we supposed to go 2+ weeks that way?
And yes, I know... projecting. Laura is the one that (deep down?) feels like she might be responsible so she pushes those feelings to the nearest patsy. Which in this case is both me and Mom. Me that I'm pushing Mom over the edge, Mom that she needs to the hospital just for stress relaxation :|
Meh even Mom knows what she really needs: rest, sleep, her stuff finished (paperwork that is 2 months overdue *sigh*), and Laura to stop busting her chops.
Too bad the latter realistically only happens when Laura leaves.
And I really do think the only reason I've held on this week is 100% thanks to Kyle. A) because Laura tries harder to be nice and b) he's calm and rational in the sea of chaos that is my family/house.
Of course I'm mad because I'm scared because hello.... Laura has convinced a lot of people of complete and total LIES and pure insanity in the past so it's not out there to consider that she still might convince Mom of another one and in this case if that happens VERY bad things happen. As it is, I just calmed Mom down last night after a relatively big meltdown. And no, it's not just Laura's fault because Mom really does over-react around Laura but the minute Laura took off with the car I was able to talk Mom down into reality.
If only for the short time being.
