silverwolfcc

My sleeping is ALWAYS and I mean always messed up. In this case, I've been sleeping around 12ish hours a night and for 1/3 of the time I'm awake I'm sleepy as hell. So why am I bothering to continue writing instead of just deciding screw it I already finished another section and it took me horus because I'm freaking exhausted? Because if I try for sleep right now, supposing I even achieve it before Jeremiah shows up, he'll just wake me up again around 6ish (45 minutes from now) -- he's a loud kid :( The other explanation of course is that I'm just a messed up little freak with too much time on my hands and too much doujinshi/fanfics/etc. But shhhhh.

( Justice: The Jacket Part 2 )

*purrs* I think I AM actually done this time beceause lo and behold... I can end it here until the next part! YAY! Cliff-hangers are fun! And I don't *think* that's the lack of sleep insanity talking... o_O or is it? I guess I'll find out tomorrow when I either go, "No duh it can end there," or "wt4 was I thinking?!"

So more dreams again... last night. The sheer amount of scenes I have to write out now is astonishing.... to give you an idea, I wrote down an outline today. It took me roughly four hours (I am an EXTREMELY slow writer. My typing fortunately is faster however, not fast enough as my brain when writing is spacey. Something to do with the left vs. right part of brain) and wound up roughly 6 1/2 pages (slightly less) and that's all BEFORE the Grand Line o_O And trust me... this whole thing STARTED at the Grand Line back like what? 7 months ago??? *counts on fingers* Slightly less but not a lot. Insanity. And I love it ^_^ So this will make it easier to decide which parts to write then and gives me a pretty good idea of where things go, which believe me is REALLY hard to sort out because it really just does come scenes at a time and so then figuring out the time-line = very tough. And did I mention I love it? I feel... *breathes and sucks it all in* I don't even know the word for it. I've felt more alive, it's true. And I've felt more at peace and more me... (usually when I'm doing school-work... how sad is that?) but I think it's like a combination of the three... like this is the way things are SUPPOSED to be. Destiny kind of . . . Me, scribbling into notebooks hundreds of pages worth of writing and then doing my best to write it all out and. . . I don't know how to describe except that it's perfect.

( Insubordination )

I'm not entirely sure I'm good with the way that went but inner monologues are always hard for me to write without it being boring. I guess I'm just a true blue action and dialogue writer. *shrugs* Also the next one will be tricky since it just kind of misses some days-ness... eh it'll work out ;)