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silverwolfcc) wrote2006-11-08 04:26 am
silverwolfcc) wrote2006-11-08 04:26 am
NaNoWriMo??
Again? Why do I do this to myself? I KNOW I can't finish... and I know I shouldn't even TRY to do National Novel Writing Month (write a novel in a month and win!) because I'm in HEAVY relapse I mean like WOW relapse even though I am getting better (which makes it all the more apparent I am getting better because if I weren't the relapse would have me strung out, stuck lying down and unable to do more than wiggle toes if that. Luckily I'm relatively good just not you know... NaNoWriMo good.
I like November. Especially November rain and the really cloudy days. I don't know why. But the idea of NaNoWriMo is what induces me to this self-torture each year... It's so contradictory to my usual writing standard of taking 5 years to finish the first book in a trilogy which is about 4 times longer than the required novella length and took 60 times longer than the one month time-slot. I want to BE like Piers Anthony, I want to have a bazillion fantasy books and whatever books and all of it actually FINISHED. He wrote Vale of the Vole in 8 weeks. 8 weeks! I want to do that...
Strangely I don't have the self-discipline to do it. I know what you're thinking because right now it's actually requiring self-discipline I don't have to STOP from TRYING to do NaNoWriMo as it'll most likely wear me out and kind of frustrate me. But it's true. When it comes to writing I have TERRIBLE self-motivation. For all my workaholicism, when it comes to writing I sit there coloring the little paper sides in notebooks or playing solitaire above the page I'm supposed to be working on. I've gotten better about it over the years (being sick ironically GREATLY helped with that because it made it more, when I can write I DO. And how.) but to finish Book 2 in even just one year?????? .... I don't think so.
But I think if I try to keep you know moderate this time... work on the Luffy, Smoker/Ace and Naru (yikes I really need to actually START those) drabbles (I figure I'll finish Heartless, Rainy's, Tasuki and Carm's in Decemeber... ummm I should re-check my list... yikes) and like I said, MODERATION maybe it'll just give me something to shoot for?
I need to write... I ACHE to write. I want to get somewhere with it. It feels like my mountain piles up but I still want to chip something off.
Kyle said he wanted a "Meg Cabot-esque" book by me about us and how we met etc. as it does seem rather well appropriately romantic fictional (despite being true) and I think that's going to be my NaNoWriMo project. It's mostly going to be a collection of organized re-typed/remembered aim conversations and O.A. threads with narration in first person by me so writing-wise I don't think it should give me too much trouble. My goal (I'm shooting big but VOW not to get disappointed if I fall short) is to finish out the red notebook by December.
That said I'll be going back through lj entries from what starting 2 + years ago? And anyone who has saved conversations or knows which threads might be relevant and helpful would be GREATLY appreciated. (I need to talk to Heartless, make sure I can okay her to put her in the book and run it by *mental list* Leanne, Greg S., Faye, Ikki, Hack, and well Darcia I'll have to re-nickname.)
And Kyle, I need those conversations you have saved :P
And so I begin NOW. ^_^ Wish me luck all, I'm going to need it.
I like November. Especially November rain and the really cloudy days. I don't know why. But the idea of NaNoWriMo is what induces me to this self-torture each year... It's so contradictory to my usual writing standard of taking 5 years to finish the first book in a trilogy which is about 4 times longer than the required novella length and took 60 times longer than the one month time-slot. I want to BE like Piers Anthony, I want to have a bazillion fantasy books and whatever books and all of it actually FINISHED. He wrote Vale of the Vole in 8 weeks. 8 weeks! I want to do that...
Strangely I don't have the self-discipline to do it. I know what you're thinking because right now it's actually requiring self-discipline I don't have to STOP from TRYING to do NaNoWriMo as it'll most likely wear me out and kind of frustrate me. But it's true. When it comes to writing I have TERRIBLE self-motivation. For all my workaholicism, when it comes to writing I sit there coloring the little paper sides in notebooks or playing solitaire above the page I'm supposed to be working on. I've gotten better about it over the years (being sick ironically GREATLY helped with that because it made it more, when I can write I DO. And how.) but to finish Book 2 in even just one year?????? .... I don't think so.
But I think if I try to keep you know moderate this time... work on the Luffy, Smoker/Ace and Naru (yikes I really need to actually START those) drabbles (I figure I'll finish Heartless, Rainy's, Tasuki and Carm's in Decemeber... ummm I should re-check my list... yikes) and like I said, MODERATION maybe it'll just give me something to shoot for?
I need to write... I ACHE to write. I want to get somewhere with it. It feels like my mountain piles up but I still want to chip something off.
Kyle said he wanted a "Meg Cabot-esque" book by me about us and how we met etc. as it does seem rather well appropriately romantic fictional (despite being true) and I think that's going to be my NaNoWriMo project. It's mostly going to be a collection of organized re-typed/remembered aim conversations and O.A. threads with narration in first person by me so writing-wise I don't think it should give me too much trouble. My goal (I'm shooting big but VOW not to get disappointed if I fall short) is to finish out the red notebook by December.
That said I'll be going back through lj entries from what starting 2 + years ago? And anyone who has saved conversations or knows which threads might be relevant and helpful would be GREATLY appreciated. (I need to talk to Heartless, make sure I can okay her to put her in the book and run it by *mental list* Leanne, Greg S., Faye, Ikki, Hack, and well Darcia I'll have to re-nickname.)
And Kyle, I need those conversations you have saved :P
And so I begin NOW. ^_^ Wish me luck all, I'm going to need it.