I have REALLY got to learn and REMEMBER one of these days that putting in a cd refreshes all my netscape pages!!! *swears*
So yeah... I had a BUNCH on here beforehand and now it's lost... *sigh* Oh well. That's the kind of week I'm having. I really think the new med they have me on for the migraines is either reversing the effect of my other one (Lexapro) or manic depression is one of the random side effects. On the happier side; it's been helping me to get to sleep easier which is nice.
My mind isn't really home right now, which is always a good thing. For a few days at least (and I'm sure you can tell just by going through my previous entries) it's been out on the ocean, on pirate ships, coastal ports, and tropical islands. It's a rather pleasant place to be really. Sometimes I worry if I'm losing my grip on reality but I still never have completely lost it yet... I guess there's something just holding me back.
Brings me to mind Gonzo's song. I always feel the way he does about the sky about fantasy. Someday I'll get back there... It's funny you know. The writing thing... if I COULD be writing back the way I want to be this wouldn't even be an issue right now (with me all mildly depressed, wistful etc.) I'd just be writing away my pain and happy. Like this though... it's like I don't know... a dream? Close-ish I guess. More real than a memory... Really like a part of me is right there, feeling the ocean breeze, dancing under the stars, smelling the salty tang of the sure, feeling the cuts and bruises from my sword fighting -- and loving every minute of it. I guess part of me will always be there... Maybe it's that whole, "Home is where the heart is" thing... and my heart's never been grounded in reality.
Gah... forgot how fast this med starts to take effect... I'm already zonking out here. And not in my usual insomniac way but in a full body, all my muscles feel like they're already asleep and they're demanding my brain should be as well. Guess the quizzes will have to wait until tomorrow (which should make Leanne happy ;) )
So yeah... I had a BUNCH on here beforehand and now it's lost... *sigh* Oh well. That's the kind of week I'm having. I really think the new med they have me on for the migraines is either reversing the effect of my other one (Lexapro) or manic depression is one of the random side effects. On the happier side; it's been helping me to get to sleep easier which is nice.
My mind isn't really home right now, which is always a good thing. For a few days at least (and I'm sure you can tell just by going through my previous entries) it's been out on the ocean, on pirate ships, coastal ports, and tropical islands. It's a rather pleasant place to be really. Sometimes I worry if I'm losing my grip on reality but I still never have completely lost it yet... I guess there's something just holding me back.
Brings me to mind Gonzo's song. I always feel the way he does about the sky about fantasy. Someday I'll get back there... It's funny you know. The writing thing... if I COULD be writing back the way I want to be this wouldn't even be an issue right now (with me all mildly depressed, wistful etc.) I'd just be writing away my pain and happy. Like this though... it's like I don't know... a dream? Close-ish I guess. More real than a memory... Really like a part of me is right there, feeling the ocean breeze, dancing under the stars, smelling the salty tang of the sure, feeling the cuts and bruises from my sword fighting -- and loving every minute of it. I guess part of me will always be there... Maybe it's that whole, "Home is where the heart is" thing... and my heart's never been grounded in reality.
Gah... forgot how fast this med starts to take effect... I'm already zonking out here. And not in my usual insomniac way but in a full body, all my muscles feel like they're already asleep and they're demanding my brain should be as well. Guess the quizzes will have to wait until tomorrow (which should make Leanne happy ;) )


















